Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Tempted

I'm so tempted to just come out in a facebook status message and watch the aftermath. I'm so sick of my current situation. I'm sick of the double life. I kind of want to get it all over and done with. I kind of just want to come out, huddle in my room in the fetal position for a month, and then go back to my daily life. If only I could do that. Ugh. Instead I'm going to wait until I transfer out of BYU then come out slowly to more and more people and deal with each and every reaction. Good times.

6 comments:

Scott said...

I "came out" to myself in June, to my wife and family in July, to several friends and extended family (including on Facebook) from August through October, and in testimony meeting at church in early November. Never at any time did I feel rushed, or like I was taking things too fast.

Everyone's different, and I realize that what worked for me won't work for everyone, but if there's no compelling reason for you to wait, and you want to get it all over with at once, I'd say go for it! I've always preferred ripping the band-aid off over trying to go slowly and letting it yank out the hairs on my arm one by one.

invisible said...

It must be hard to be gay at BYU. I could not even imagine. Are there maybe some people you respect and trust at BYU that you could come out to?

Captain Midnight said...

Yeah, I've already come out to a few friends I know I can trust, but I'm a little wary of coming out to too many people while at BYU. A lot of people still haven't grasped the "being gay isn't a sin" concept, so I've been reported to the honor code a couple times, just for being gay. It's pretty stupid. So that's mostly why I'm waiting, just to avoid the hassle of ignorant whistle-blowers.

Ezra said...

I want to come out on facebook too...FACEBOOK: Your personal press corp.!

Ezra said...

Hey, as a side note, I'm going to try and have my own moho blog, visible at http://nohomoho.blogspot.com

Hope you're well.

D. said...

I don't know if you have come out on Facebook yet, I may be totally out of the loop but once I came out on Facebook and now most everyone know about me I have this new sense of hope. I can be me and I don't have to hide anymore. Keep that in mind and that may help you make your decision. :)