Friday, August 15, 2008

Dream

I had a dream last night that I told a group of co-workers that I was gay. They listened intently,  asked questions, and showed genuine interest in my feelings. They tried to understand and they didn't judge. For the rest of the dream I was walking around work feeling accepted and understood for who I was. I had no secret identity underneath a straight exterior. I woke up feeling incredibly at peace. It was seriously so comforting to me, since the day before a friend's mother felt the need to out me to my school officials, thus prompting an investigation. I'm still in the process of deciding whether or not there is a god, but this dream kind of makes me feel like there's at least some sort of higher power looking out for me. I spent most of the day yesterday feeling like everyone was out to get me in a modern day homosexual witch-hunt. After the dream last night though, I feel like there really is acceptance out there, despite all the homophobia. I can't wait until the day where I can just be who I am without fear of persecution. Maybe that day will never come, but I hope it will.

It Begins...

Long have I considered writing an anonymous blog, free from the judgment of family members or co-workers, and today a close friend of mine convinced me that such a thing must be done. So here we are. Enjoy.